Do you feel like I do?

Does anyone else wish they had a little more help here and there with various aspects of their lives -- or do people have self-constucted networks of support people in the friends that they choose to have or in the family they happen to be a part of?

I am usually quite happy and content to travel a path different than others I am aware of, but in this case I wonder if I am making my life more challenging than it should be or needs to be.

And of course, I do not do well with having to rely upon anyone for much of anything, so then obviously I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't.

Feeling far less than damned right now, I feel weary and I long daily for a change of scenery and activities. Apparently similarly to Captain Jack Sparrow, I am unable to get my compass to work properly as I am unable to formulate what I might like as an alternative to my current day to day.