Does anyone else wish they had a little more help here and there with various aspects of their lives -- or do people have self-constucted networks of support people in the friends that they choose to have or in the family they happen to be a part of?
I am usually quite happy and content to travel a path different than others I am aware of, but in this case I wonder if I am making my life more challenging than it should be or needs to be.
And of course, I do not do well with having to rely upon anyone for much of anything, so then obviously I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't.
Feeling far less than damned right now, I feel weary and I long daily for a change of scenery and activities. Apparently similarly to Captain Jack Sparrow, I am unable to get my compass to work properly as I am unable to formulate what I might like as an alternative to my current day to day.
- i do not sleep as much as i should, or nearly as much as i might like to.
- i do not eat properly or healthily.
- i do not read enough, or nearly as much as i might like to.
- i do not write enough, or nearly as much as i might like to.
- i do not manage my(our) money as well as i should, or nearly as well as i might like to.
- i do not communicate with those i care about as well as i should, or as well as i might like to.
- i do not work hard enough to break the bad habits and behaviors i possess, or nearly as much as i wish i would.
However:
- i do have a reasonable job, with nice benefits and a relatively comfortable work enviornment.
- i do have a happy, healthy growing daughter with a killer sense of humor.
- i do have a husband who loves me and tries to do right by us.
- i do have a nice place to live, even if the house itself has some issues and flaws.
- i do find myself to be happy much more than i feel unhappy in my life.
- i do make sure to consistently visit the doctor(s) that i need to to maintain my health and continued life.
- i do yearn for more for myself and my family, in terms of looking to future goals and hopes and dreams.
i see progress in myself and for my family. that makes me happier than anything in the world.
i do not know what will happen tomorrow, but i do hope that each day will be better and happier than the one preceeding it.
on do not and do.